Things Never Stay the Same

I’m really antsy and jumpy like I’ve had a lot of sugar. I’ve been like that for 2 days…and its really freakin me out. Hopefully I can calm myself down cuz sometimes I repeat stuff I do over and over-its really crazy!!! Anyway, the other day somebody asked me where I wanted to go to college. Am I supposed to know? Cuz I don’t. My sister wants to go to the college my other sister is going. She’ll like it there, we lived there for like all of our lives till we left. I don’t know where I wanna go or want I wanna major in or anything like that. My best friend wants to go to college out of town and if i go back to where I’m from she probably won’t be there. I was playing hopskotch today (yeah, I know, kinda elementary but I made my board go up to 30-elementary kids do 12..which is too little) when I thought of how long it had been since I played games outside like this and thought bout how everything is different.

One day I’m gonna have to have an idea of what I wanna do with my life, now I don’t worry about college and stuff. I think about other stuff…sometimes the future like the upcoming week but not years ahead. I guess I wish some things would stay the same or I would know the answers to all the questions I have. From the “narrow-minded” questions that a 8 year old would ask like what the heck is cat nip (sp?) and why it has to be so hot/cloudy to questions that a person my age or older asks. I dunno though, I just need to think about what I wanna do to find whatever it is I guess. I don’t worry about that-but I do admit I worry of other stuff. I worry a lot. (Another blog entry though.) Right now though I need to figure out how I can clean up my room and what I need to stop holding on to. I wish I could hire someone to do this all for me, that’d be one less thing I’d have to worry about cuz I wanna go to the movies.