Just Thinkin’ on Scattered Thoughts

Today was the 2nd to the last episode of Baby Borrowers. A few couples fought and Daton left. The teens toilet papered the neighborhood and yeah. ‘Not much I have to say bout the episode, it was good. I think it was different from the others cuz the parents weren’t monitoring their kids in this one. I think I wanna go on the show, I think I’d make a good canadite for the show…I’m a teen, I’m not a wild give-me-what-i-want-now kind of person and I wouldn’t mind going out of state for a few days. hehe but I don’t know. I hope I’d get to pick which couple to go live w/ though (doubt you’re even given that option) cuz if I were I’d choose a couple that wasn’t on the rocks so much and who I thought I’d be able to bond with easier. Some couples fought a lot and yelled…like Kelly and Austin and how Daton left Morgan-all that I’d hate to see. I know stuff happens but it looked hard to just be there watching arguing go on. I wouldn’t like that, I’d grab my purse and music and walk out…go over to another couple’s house or take the bus to the mall. But yeah…

I finally get to go someplace soon. I get to visit my family and best friend a few hours away from me. That was the longest wait in the world it seemed like. I have so many things I wanna do. And since I found my camcorder its time to make some videos. Yay! Since we’ve moved a few yrs ago it really makes you look forward to seeing them so much more. There’s no more “see you tomorrow” or whatever, its like, “Talk to you later. See you next summer or in blah blah months”. haha. It was hard at first being in a new place and all w/o the people you’re close to but I think I’ve learned a lot about myself from being taken out of comfort zone. You learn how to be stronger in situations that kind of make you feel uncomfortable or even scared. You learn that change isn’t so bad in the end and things fall into place eventually. Am I preaching? I kinda wrote in my journal last night bout my day and I ended up kind of writing about being happy and just to quit worrying so much, maybe it was preachy but I think it was somethin I needed to remind myself of.

There’s so many things that drag a person down or get in the way of doing what they should/want to do. And I don’t think it should be that way. For me I’m a…mmm you could say “worry wart” and its hard to just push things away and focus on whats important and not what ifs but its something that should be done. I’m kind of all just scattered right now-I’ve got a 1000 things pumping through my head right now that I’m tryin to not write my life story but its hard to just be like “Today was good. Goodnight”-I’m a detail person…if I’m gonna tell about something I like to do it right. Hmm so what else do I wanna put other there tonight?

Well heres one thing-the orthodontist appt is tomorrow. I get my expander out, I got it last summer when I was 14. Its almost been a year. Wow. And then new stuff is gonna be put in my mouth i think. I don’t know. They don’t really get specific on what next time has for you…its like a surprise. These kinds of surprises, the wait-and-see ones sometimes make me anxious. The appt is in the early afternoon so I’m probably gonna hop in the shower now b/c I doubt I can take a few minutes to shower and wake up early in the morning. Besides last time I accidentally left a piece of my hair with shampoo still in my curls. It happens rarely but I hate the feeling of shampoo still your hair! Oh oh and I also saw Foxy Brown today. ‘Made a year after Coffy. It was good, filled with action and made me wanna know what was next but these 2 movies are so not family movies unless the kids are adults. You gotta be mature, I guess you could say. These aren’t no PG movies,  these are like rated R 1970s movies. Oh and I guess you gotta like “back-in-the-day” movies too.

Anyway, I’ve got an early start to my day tomorrow so I need to get ready for it and get my clothes out or whatever. I shouldn’t be writing in here anymore tonight, I’m wasting time. I’ll write tomorrow or whatever and say how everything went and what else is new if I’ve forgotten to say anything from tonight’s post. Goodnight!