I Know What I Can Do

So…I suck at keeping a blog. I used to have a lot to type about and reading some of it is kinda boring. Stuff has happened but its not really blog materal. There’s 2 types of stuff worth writing down about whats new: 1. the kind of stuff that you don’t mind sharing the world with and having people who’ve never met you in their life know and 2. the kind of stuff that will be complicated for a person who doesn’t know you personally in real life to get and you really don’t feel like sharing. Some stuff should be kept private when doing stuff online.

But here’s some stuff that I can share. I don’t like people who underestimate me. I’ve gotten that a bit more often than I expected since the last time I blogged. Its cuz of my size that people underestimate me. Isn’t that stupid? I know I’m not the average height for someone my age and I know I probably don’t look my age but I didn’t like being told I couldn’t do something by people who didn’t know what I can do. (Going into detail and sharing a huge 500000 word story isn’t somethin I want to do.) It made me feel like I would have to prove myself to people to show that I could do what I said. I didn’t think I should prove myself to those people-or anyone at all. There are people who know me and know what I can do. Plus I know what I can do. To sum up my rant I think some people are very small minded and judge other people to easy. Everyone should get a chance, not someone else just because they look like they can do something better than the other person who is smaller. *rolls eyes* Anyways…

I was recently asked to write something and asked to read it aloud. (Once again not going to explain in detail-its getting kinda late anyway). I write whenever i feel like it and when I have something heavily on my mind. When I don’t think about it I can write stuff that I think is better than writing knowing that I have a deadline, guidelines to follow and most of all that others will be reading it. A blog is different, I’m just going blah blah blah. Writing is more deep and more personal…and knowing others will be hearing me tell them it aloud is more pressure to make something good. Its never when I go up to people I know and say, “I want you to hear something I wrote” or whatever. Maybe when I was smaller and when I could barely spell my full name. I guess  now I’ve gotten more protective and private which is good in some ways. Some things ought to be kept hushed and not HEY YOU LISTEN TO THIS. Other things are okay to tell people. I agreed to do so when asked and I can’t change my mind. I mean I could  but y’know then there’d be the whole “why” and ?s I really wouldn’t have an answer to. I haven’t the slightest idea of what to write about and I should brainstorm and write soon. I should also make my Christmas list too. (Thats a weekend job for me.)

Maybe writing something to share with people who know me won’t be so bad. I don’t have to go super deep if I don’t want to. I can write as personal as I want. I’m being believed in and I do know what I can do.