I Know What I Can Do

So…I suck at keeping a blog. I used to have a lot to type about and reading some of it is kinda boring. Stuff has happened but its not really blog materal. There’s 2 types of stuff worth writing down about whats new: 1. the kind of stuff that you don’t mind sharing the world with and having people who’ve never met you in their life know and 2. the kind of stuff that will be complicated for a person who doesn’t know you personally in real life to get and you really don’t feel like sharing. Some stuff should be kept private when doing stuff online.

But here’s some stuff that I can share. I don’t like people who underestimate me. I’ve gotten that a bit more often than I expected since the last time I blogged. Its cuz of my size that people underestimate me. Isn’t that stupid? I know I’m not the average height for someone my age and I know I probably don’t look my age but I didn’t like being told I couldn’t do something by people who didn’t know what I can do. (Going into detail and sharing a huge 500000 word story isn’t somethin I want to do.) It made me feel like I would have to prove myself to people to show that I could do what I said. I didn’t think I should prove myself to those people-or anyone at all. There are people who know me and know what I can do. Plus I know what I can do. To sum up my rant I think some people are very small minded and judge other people to easy. Everyone should get a chance, not someone else just because they look like they can do something better than the other person who is smaller. *rolls eyes* Anyways…

I was recently asked to write something and asked to read it aloud. (Once again not going to explain in detail-its getting kinda late anyway). I write whenever i feel like it and when I have something heavily on my mind. When I don’t think about it I can write stuff that I think is better than writing knowing that I have a deadline, guidelines to follow and most of all that others will be reading it. A blog is different, I’m just going blah blah blah. Writing is more deep and more personal…and knowing others will be hearing me tell them it aloud is more pressure to make something good. Its never when I go up to people I know and say, “I want you to hear something I wrote” or whatever. Maybe when I was smaller and when I could barely spell my full name. I guess  now I’ve gotten more protective and private which is good in some ways. Some things ought to be kept hushed and not HEY YOU LISTEN TO THIS. Other things are okay to tell people. I agreed to do so when asked and I can’t change my mind. I mean I could  but y’know then there’d be the whole “why” and ?s I really wouldn’t have an answer to. I haven’t the slightest idea of what to write about and I should brainstorm and write soon. I should also make my Christmas list too. (Thats a weekend job for me.)

Maybe writing something to share with people who know me won’t be so bad. I don’t have to go super deep if I don’t want to. I can write as personal as I want. I’m being believed in and I do know what I can do.

Fall Findings

Tomorrow night we find out who’s the new president. If its Obama then all those Obama shirts will be like collectables. I’ll admit Idk much bout politics but i wonder who will be president. Hmm. I’m too small to vote right now but I’m not too small to find out who will be the next president though the new president won’t be in the White House until January.

So today after an orthodontist appt I went to Target. Booties (or ankle boots) are very in this fall and I really like the vintage kind. I think they’re cute and so I found me some nice ankle boots at Target but gosh-they were kinda high. You know the high heel thats like you’re on the balls of your feet? Well these were it. Plus the smallest size they had was a 6! And the kids never get any shoes that are that nice-their dress shoes are just shiny flats. I did find a pair of heels in the womens that were like a mid heel but I wasnt sure bout spending 30 on them. I wish I would’ve snatched ‘em up now cuz I think they’d look cute with some of my shirts here at home but oh well I needed a 5 i think, not a 5 1/2, which was as small as they went. I did buy a black shirt though. I don’t have any black except 1 black shirt and thats my Audrey Hepburn tee-which I really do love a lot.

At Rue21 I got me a shirt with stars thats really nice. I’m washing it now w/ some of my colors. And then I got me a necklace thats silver. I don’t like colorful costume jewerly like I once did. I like silver and pearls (fake of course cuz I dont have a lot of money) and stuff that looks like its special or it came from someone special who had you in mind when they were buying it…who took time to find the perfect piece of jewerly for you. I looked at shoes there too but found none. I’m a shopping addict in some way but I can spot a good find easy which is how I was able to stretch birthday money out till 6 weeks after my birthday AND be able to set aside 30 or 40 beforehand to be saved. (Im saving for a new cell phone thats 300.)

Today was a good day. ‘Got out of school early. ‘Found out I have less than a year left w/ my braces and I got some clothes. I woke up in a really cheerful mood too.  :D

Something to Ease My Frustration…

Yay! New Beyonce songs! (http://www.power1051fm.com/pages/news/beyonce/ and http://z100.elvisduran.com/pages/news/beyonce/) I can’t wait to buy the album next month!!!

I started writing (finally) a story the night before last. I think its good but some peope don’t. I don’t care what anyone thinks of the idea cuz I think its original. I wrote like two pages at lunch. I don’t write my work on pen and paper much cuz I don’t want it to get lost and if I mess up I gotta scribble it out, theres no backspace. I hope I can finish this one cuz lately i haven’t been good at finishing anything i start.

i was kinda frustrated today. i guess it started with running late this morning and then everything ticked me off that seemed out of place. and then thats when i saw i was being too crabby! so i went home and i called my best friend to vent to her and so we could catch up with each other since it had been a few days since we talked. i feel better now, i guess. i’m just ready to jump into Friday. I love Fridays. And I’m gonna try my hardest to be in a better mood. I don’t think I hurt anyone really but i felt like i was being too crabby about everything. and maybe i’ll be able to get myself to do some homework i have too.

theres no more money i have left to spend. my birthday money lasted five weeks, i stretched it out as far as i could. I know its bad for you but when i go shopping even just to walk around the store, i feel better. ohh maybe its more weird than bad. i’m not addicted to shopping where i need help. but it was a nice crutch for awhile. now i gotta do homework this weekend so i won’t fall behind when next week comes!

Monday Morning Wake Up Call

So last night my sister loaded up some new music for me off her computer onto my memory stick. Lately she’s been giving me some music of some artists she thinks I’ll like and I end up liking them a lot. I’ve loaded up a lot of music on my MP3 player so far, which will work good for my trip. I like having a lot of music-over 200 songs!! Plus I can listen to the radio on my MP3 player, but I don’t always do that b/c I like to listen to my music most of the time. Anyway, I tossed the memory stick on my desk and crawled into bed around 1 somethin AM. I slept soundly most of the night…

Until at 10:00 AM my cell rang. Dang it! I forgot to turn it off! I thought annoyed. I unzipped my Nine West mini bag (i have 2 one is by Nine by NineWest this one is the one I’m talking about and then I have one by Nine West. Both are 2 of my favorites, I love them!) and fished out the phone, wondering who it was this time. Not many people know my cell # and I like it that way, I’m a reserved person and I don’t like my phone ringing off the hook from people who I don’t know very well just yet. (Talking online and in person comes before phone.) It was a telemarketer and that made me even more annoyed. I hit the voicemail button and threw the phone bag in my purse before deciding it was final…that was a wake up call alright cuz I was wide awake. I loaded up the new music and played something soft to get me in a good mood again.

Speaking of cell phones, I really want a new phone. I saw the Sprint Instinct on TV and as soon as I saw it I knew I had to somehow find a way to get it b/c I thought it was 10x better than my pink one now (don’t get me wrong, im glad i at least have a phone. i dont wanna come off as ungrateful but y’know) and plus it was Sprint and in the past the phones that I like are by different cell phone providers. The Instinct is a touch screen phone and I’ve never had one of those before. I’ve only had flip phones. Right now the phone is like what 500 i think but by next summer hopefully it’ll go down and then w/ my $$$ from my summer job I can buy it! Now I know next summer is a long time away..and I’m hoping if I’m real good this year for Christmas I can get it (lets not hold our breath though, my parents think i should wait 2 yrs b4 getting a new one so i can get that discount…so thats 1 more Christmas after this b4 getting the Instinct)…but since things don’t seem 100% sure I’ll get it, I know its all in my hands. Plus, what else could i spend that summer money on anyway? I have too much makeup, shoes and all that and I think a phone is more useful than those things to an extent b/c a phone doesn’t have to be applied just right and blended and stuff like makeup and a phone doesn’t have to go with your clothes like shoes.

I really hope I get a new phone sooner than next summer but I think I’ll have to wait. *sigh* Another longest wait in the world coming my way just when the first one is coming up closer and closer. Maybe if I save up my allowence after this one I can get closer to getting that phone and then w/ my summer $$ I can buy texting! Idk if texting on a touch screen phone is weird to get used to though. I’m sorta CC so I don’t know the ups and downs of a touch screen phone. Hmm…

Watching Movies and Making Movies!

So I’m starting to shoot for my movie now! Yay! I started last week but I didn’t format my memory card in my camera (oopsie!) and eventually ended up losing everything, it sucked! So yesterday after watching “A League of Their Own” (good movie btw, it made me cry a few times) I went outside. I did 2 short videos around 1 minute long or so, I still have to put them on the computer so I can see what I wanna cut out from the video. I guess I should add in, if I haven’t already, that this isn’t a movie movie. Like this is just going to be a video with music playing all the way through. A music video. Its my first time doing something like this so I’m playing it safe. I’m trying to do stuff worth watching nothing stupid like just standing around…soo yeah.

On top of this I’m also working on my film that I’m doing with my friend in a few weeks. It’s going to be a movie, not a music video. It’s going to be fun, I’ve already written a lot of mini short scripts that are kinda funny so it’ll be hard to choose which ones to do out of them. I can’t wait to shoot them! Plus we’re going to do some other videos too. So it’ll be pretty cool doing all these videos.

Anyway, I went to the Wal-Mart the other day I bought me some L’Oreal eyeshadows. They’re kinda light and aren’t bright bright but I still like them. In one of my other posts I mentioned Lash Blast eyeshadow and had said anyone who was into makeup and eyeshadow should go buy them. Well they should also buy L’Oreal eyeshadow quads. I have “out of the blue” and next time I’m gonna get the Eva Longoria one, its shades of purples and has her autograph printed on the lid. I also got the Beyonce lipstick, its in bronze. I like it too. It goes on real smooth and is a nice shimmer. 2 good things I found from L’Oreal the other day. I’m talking about Wal-Mart here b/c I was looking at the Kit: An American Girl movie soundtrack. I have the Kit doll, I used to play with her and buy a bunch of clothes for her when I was little like 8 or 9. I’ve known about the movie for about a year now and I’m really excited to see it later. I loved the Kit books when I was little and thats what first got me into writing and old movies especially from her time-the 1930s. So yeah, everyone should go see the Kit movie b/c it looks really good and theres not many movies like this one right now. Its not just a kiddy movie. (And then watch I’ll be like the oldest kid in the theater-j/p! LOL)

Its sorta funny because when I saw the previews for the Kit movie for the first time I got all excited and stuff like a nine year old. Now that I’m 15 I’m obviously a little different from how I was almost 7 years ago…[2001, i think], (I feel old!) but the Kit movie is like the only thing that I still like from my…”childhood” I guess you could say (I feel ancient now!). The movie looks good and hopefully it is-they added in stuff and changed the characters up a bit so hopefully the movie will be pretty good like the books were!!